Ticking Clocks

She left today. For good from my life. For two nights, I had her in my arms, watched her sleep, knowing full well that so little time is left. The time for me to tell her how i felt, for her to know what my tears meant.

Our first and last kiss were only a day apart, the first full of passion and love, the last full of sorrow and despair. It hurt to see the pain in her moist eyes as she pushed me to go. Around her neck, the butterfly pendant i gave glittered in the moonlight, almost solemn in sadness.

‘I wished it didn’t have to end this way’ were my final words in her ears as i kissed her one last time, knowing that she would be returning to another life, another page which she never did want to turn in her book.

Today, i stood frozen at the airport, watching her embracing her father for a final time, both stricken with sadness. She did not see me as i stood in silence, my courage failing. I wanted to step forth but i knew i could not, should not. She’s with her family and it is not my position to interfere, to add to her sorrow.

I watched her disappear without saying a word, without her even knowing i had came and seen her off. The pain was hard to bear, it still is, but life has to go on.

She’s halfway around the world now, thousands of kilometers away.

Maybe one day, we will meet again, in this life or another, and i will love you again.

I miss you, lil angel.

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